Left on the couch ... lonely and with a sore ass

Quite literally. I was left on what's normally my favorite place to be, where I do nothing but enjoy Stacy-time, Sunday night at about 6pm. A day after T-Bone emptied my house of most of his stuff. And right after telling me that our impossible relationship of two probably broken people that may or may not have had any business being together from the beginning shouldn't continue.

Because I'm not in the mood to defend him on blogger, and partly because it wouldn't be fair to air his personal issues to strangers, I will say very little about the reasons for now. But I will say that he's not a bad person and I don't regret a second of the past three years. I agreed with everything he said to me. Mostly. And I will say that over-all, it's fairly mutual. We aren't fighting, he didn't cheat, he doesn't want to be with someone else, and we do love each other ... But as most of you will agree, sometimes love isn't enough. And it's ironic now that up until a few days ago, when people asked what we were even doing together this long if not planning our wedding, or at the very least living together, we'd both confidently reply "If it's not broke, don't fix it!" And although we have no intention of leaving each others lives completely, something is broken and I don't know if there's a way to fix it.

The last 48 hours of my life has been awful to put it simply. I've shed many o tears - not gonna lie. And because I've been battling a sinus infection or some shit for almost two weeks, I've blown out and coughed up litres of snot. I'm running off very little sleep, none of which I've had in my bed ... call me sappy, crazy, whatever, but I can usually only sleep comfortably in my bed when T-Bone's in it. Everything I've eaten since Sunday has come out almost immediately, and quite abrubtly I should add. My eyes are sore, my nose is sore, my head is sore, my ass is sore. I havent been at work since Friday and I'm now on beta-fish death watch because the little fucker just jumped out of his tank.

Today was better than yesterday though and I even brushed my teeth. I finally hit up my doctor for some antibiotics, then returned $123 worth of shirts that neither my daughter or I chose to wear to the wedding we attended on Saturday. The same wedding I fear initiated the demise of this complicated relationship that Travis and I were trying so hard to prove would work.

Fawk You Friday

I feel like a bit of a traitor typing this up, I would never tell a Friday to fuck off. I love Friday more than I love sexy time .. nowadays anyway .... But I'm playing along with Boobies, Babies, and a Blog who I found through a fabulous potty mouth bitch where I basically get to tell all sorts of things to eat shit and die ...

Fuck you ....

...nasty phlegm sitting in my face that I can't hork or spit out (classy eh?)

...kitchen tongs for ripping a chunk of my finger off

...shit eating flies that hang out on my back deck all day ( .. the fuck?)

...shitty ass weather

...office idiots (you so know who you are)

...rising interest rates

...hsbc (hope you're enjoying my $9.21 random payments .. maybe you should stop calling your customers at EIGHT AM on a Saturday, then every hour after until THREE PM ... fuckers)

...BC fires for blowing stinky haze 500 kilometers directly at our city

...slow-ass drivers on the road

...parking dick for giving me a ticket

...(and die) muffin top bitch

...weddings

That feels GREAT ... enjoy the rest of your Friday boys and girls.

Working Mommy Wednesday

This is a quick way to play, and super lazy ... never said I wasn't lazy, just read on and you'll see. I'm taking part in Working Mommy Wednesday today over at Work, Wife, Mom... Life! and the question I'm answering is: If you could have one day all to yourself, how would you spend it?

I could go the ideal route here ... sleeping in, having morning sex, going for a massage and lunch, having afternoon sex, getting a pedicure and stopping at the casino while the house staff gets to work, coming home to a cooked gourmet meal, then to bed for night time sex, but I'm taking the other road today because I've been sick for almost a week, am back at work anyway, and really really miss my couch ... so I'm linking you to one of my very first blogger posts, when I was trying to decide on a blog name. This will give you an idea of how I normally spend Stacy-time .. click HERE ....

Then click the button below and play along!

Thank You Very Much

I wanna play, I wanna play. Everything pissed me off Monday, but today's actually a great day, it's almost Friday. Score. I wanted to play today because I haven't blogged in awhile, but I can't think of anything to blog. I was fully-loaded Monday, but I opted for the couch when I got home instead and now the moment has passed. I can think of nothing that is peeving me. And that's not normal for me ... I am straining, trying hard to push something out ... but I just can't do it. My brain is constipated. I have to break your rules Kmama and play nice today ... For everyone else who wants to read some serious sarcasm, click the button and play along.

To T-Bone, who must have had stones dropped on your head at work causing you to bring a dozen roses to my house for me AND a bundle of summer flowers for Sydnerella because you wanted to be the first boy to give her flowers ... Thank You Very Much. (seriously dude, what's gotten in to you ...?)

 

To my favorite little Swede with hot wax for chosing to rip private hair off strangers bodies for a living, Thank You Very Much.

And that's all I got ...

Working Mommy Wednesday (and Hump Day)

First things first ... I got my sex on this weekend ... three times!

Thank you, thank you. Moving on .....

Today, I decided to take part in Working Mommy Wednesday over at Work, Wife, Mom ... Life, introduced to me by my bestest Texas friend Aunt Crazy a few weeks ago. Although I'm not a wife, at least not the acceptable sense that most married woman are, I am a working mom ... and I swear, when you see a blog posted by me at 2pm on a weekday, I AM working. Just kinda in between projects ... or something along those lines. It's okay, really it is. IT is doing their rounds updating security on "questionable" machines as we speak and I wasn't on that list ... I just minimized blogger while he popped in to tell me my machine is A-O-K. Again ...

Back to Working Mommy Wednesday. Todays question is WHAT ARE YOUR BEST MONEY SAVING TIPS?

I'll start with how I've saved money in the last year ... and let me tell ya, these weren't exactly choices I made. I was perfectly content before, just living in my rented house, going to the casino and spending sometimes hundreds of dollars a month at the black jack table, drinking caesars, and taking cabs home. I also enjoyed the freedom of accidently spending more money at Winners than I needed to, and it being okay because I made decent money for a single mom. A single mom who rented! Along came July 2009, when I decided pretty much out of the blue to buy a house. Slowly and steadily, but surely, I've been left with less and less money after pay days. I'm still struggling with WHY, but it is my assumption that it has something to do with being a big girl now - having a mortgage, property taxes, and everything else that comes with owning versus renting your home. Ouch, yuck, and what was I thinking? Not to mention the fact that when shit breaks, I have to fix it. Or I should say .. my faux-husband has a lot more to do around my house now than when I rented. But it's a nice house, a house I am proud to own, and in 29 years, I'll be mortgage free. If I maintain my new money saving ways. And if I can control my teenagers outlook on finances. Like when I say I don't have money, how she simply tells me to go the machine .... if it were only that easy sweetie! 

I've given up most of my gambling habits. I still buy lottery tickets and ever since T-Bone tought me to play poker, I like to play $5 games with him and his friends. Sometimes I even win. But I don't go the casino anymore and sometimes, I miss it so.

I also drink less. Not because I think it's the healthy thing to do, but because I physically can't handle to drink as much as I used to. We've talked about this ... sigh ... it's probably for the better though, what with the raging alcoholism in my family n all.

When it comes to clothes shopping, I started going to this cute little second hand store close to my house. Although, this really isn't to save money.  It's because I've mysteriously been outgrowing all my clothes and I'm sure that one day, I'll wake up and they'll all fit again. It just wouldn't make sense to buy a whole new wardrobe two sizes bigger.

I'm also lucky enough to be surrounded by grocery stores. I can pick n choose where I want to buy certain things, and each store is barely a few blocks away from the next. When I feel like gambling, I go to Co-Op. It's the most expensive, but if you hit the right sales on the right day, you win. But you need your little club card. No card, no sale. Safeway is similar, minus the gas cash I collect at Co-Op. I save a buck on groceries everytime I fill up my car. Sa-weet. Then there's Super Store. In NE Calgary. That is a rare trip for me, usually when I feel like I've been bad and deserve to be punished. And it saves me the most money. You can either go when you are in a bad mood to get some agression out, or go when you have three spare hours .. which as a single working parent, I surprisingly have a lot of those ... But you have to be prepared. And armed.

I also buy as many store-brand items as I can get away with. Although some people are pretty particular with food or house hold items brands, I honestly can't tell the difference with most items. Toilet paper is not one of those items though. $10 for 24 rolls if I have to, sorry, not compromising there. I don't like to touch my own pee. Sydnerella asked me recently if we can stop buying the white boxes when we win the lottery ... Oops, have I passed my imaginary safety net on to my daughter?

And my most recent money saving idea this year was bundling my land line with my internet and cable provider. I saved about $20 in doing this. But then I added the movie channels and rented another cable box for the house, so I guess that does't count. But the initiative was there.

A few other little things I do to save money is drinking my office coffee instead of stopping at timmy hos for $1.64 large double double every morning. And I'm sadly giving up parking down town more and more. I just can't justify $25 a day ... sometimes I can, but mainly, I know I can be doing better things with that money ... For instance, a three day break from parking at work pays my house cleaners for a month. And that really was the only goal I had a year ago ... figure out a way to afford to buy a house AND for someone to clean it. 

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